A Sudden Joyous Turn
So my nine-year-old son Aedan just finished reading Tolkien’s The Return of the King for the first time.
He came downstairs after he finished and we talked about the ending, about the mysterious Undying Lands to which the elves were compelled to go; about how happy and sad he was for Sam, who had a family and a home in a restored Shire but who had to go on without his dearest friend; the bittersweetness of Frodo’s farewell at the Grey Havens. I can’t imagine a more poignant or complete ending to the story.
I told him that Ben (Shive) wrote a song about the Grey Havens, and I played him that song from The Far Country while he read through the lyrics. (I don’t normally push my own music on the kids, so he wasn’t too familiar with it.) I was impressed all over again at what a great writer Ben is, not to mention Tolkien.
What is it about that idea of being wounded and ill-at-ease in our present condition that resonates with me so? Obviously, it’s because I’m wounded and ill-at-ease. Much of the time I feel content with my lot, and why shouldn’t I? Most of the people reading this have been blessed with the means at least to own a computer, and the leisure at which to browse websites with it. You have the ability to read, to see, to think, to type. What could we complain about? Well, about the fact that our hearts are crippled and weak. Our literal eyes may be able to see, but the eyes of our hearts are often so bloodshot and weary that our souls trip and fall.
Sunday’s sermon was about Hope. Hope is not the same as optimism, the pastor pointed out. Optimism has its place, but it is at its core the name given to a way of looking at things. The glass is either half full or half empty–our opinion of it doesn’t change the amount of water in the cup. Sure, it changes our disposition, and of course an optimistic one is the better of the two. But Hope goes deeper. Hope gives thanks that there is such a thing as water, and remembers that whether the glass is empty or full, there is a greater story being told. If there is water in the glass, then somewhere beneath the earth, in cathedral caverns where no eye has yet seen, a clear river courses. I may cry out in pain or sorrow (which seems to me anything but optimistic), and yet have hope, though I cling to it feebly.
Hope lies deep and silent.
Aedan’s reward for finishing the book was that we all watched The Return of the King–all seventeen million hours of it–Saturday night. The book itself is so precious to me that the movies, though they’re perhaps as good as they could ever hope to be, pale in comparison. But I was moved to tears several times this Saturday night, sitting next to my wife and my boys with the volume turned up way too loud. The couch rumbled. I didn’t marvel so much at the movie (though it really is a marvel in so many ways) as the story itself. This has been beaten into the ground, I know, but–what a story! What a gift Tolkien gave us.
I kept watching Aedan and Asher’s faces during certain parts of the movie, like when Shelob poisons Frodo and Sam feels that all is lost. The boys were looking upset, so I paused the DVD and talked to them about eucatastrophe. It’s a word Tolkien coined in his essay “On Fairy Stories” which means, basically, the opposite of catastrophe. He calls eucatastrophe the “sudden joyous turn”. It’s that moment when all seems lost, when evil seems to have finally overcome every good thing, when the hero can go no further. Then light prevails against the darkness. The good guys win.
When you’re writing a story, like I am now, you realize that there’s not much story if there’s nothing at stake. If there’s no evil, no enemy, no point at which the hero is at the end of his rope, then the thing falls flat for some reason. But if we want the good guys to win (and almost universally we do), why do we put our heroes through so much? Because we grow into what we are meant to be by walking through the fire.
I told the boys about how the story of Jesus’ resurrection is the ultimate eucatastrophe. When Jesus, the perfect man, God made flesh, cries out and exhales his dying breath, the sky is black and roiling, the ground shakes, the dead emerge from their tombs and haunt Jerusalem, and the sheep scatter. But Sunday morning, more than just the sun rises. Everything changes. It’s not just a story, it’s the story. A sudden joyous turn, indeed.
Un-pause.
Gandalf is sitting with Pippin beside a bulwark, a scared and weary Pippin says, “I didn’t think it would end this way.” Ian McKellen, who as far as I have read is hostile toward Christianity and Christ, speaks through Gandalf such a moving description of Heaven that I pause the movie again. Rewind. Turn on subtitles so the kids can read it. Play.
Gandalf: End? No, the journey doesn’t end here. Death is just another path. One that we all must take. The grey rain curtain of this world rolls back and all turns to silver glass. And then you see it.
Pippin: What, Gandalf? See what?
Gandalf: White shores…and beyond, a far green country under a swift sunrise.
Pippin: Well, that isn’t so bad.
Gandalf: No. It isn’t.
Then comes the sound of the door being battered down by trolls and orcs. Pippin and Gandalf are snapped out of the dream back into the present, and Pippin closes his eyes and swallows. How well I know that feeling, the feeling of taking a deep breath and bearing up a little longer for the sake of the hope and great joy that lies before me.
The kids looked at me sideways, wondering why their dad was sniffling.
Finally, Frodo bids his friends goodbye at the Grey Havens. I didn’t pause it this time, but as soon as the film was over I talked with Jamie about the wound that we all carry. Just like Frodo, we have wounds that are too deep to heal this side of that grey rain curtain; the wounds of the Fall, of our daily sin, of our loneliness and selfishness and tendency to believe the lie over the Truth. I ache to board that ship and sail away to those white shores and that far green country.
Hope holds me up. It’s what I cling to, and all I ever want to cling to.
“We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.” (Romans)
Lord, give us patience.
So I was having a bad day. I woke up, for no apparent reason, at 5:30 in the morning, and my brain was already two hours ahead of my body. It was the kind of day that usually lands me in front of the mirror with a mental baseball bat. But on this day, I did not have the wisdom to walk away in defense. Instead, I moved in closer for a beat down. My arms would not reach up to fight, but remained stubbornly, helplessly at my sides. My face, totally unprotected from the oncoming head blow, narrowly dodged clear at the very last second, and I closed my eyes in relief. A minute or two passed and I gained strength enough to push away from the glass and head for the safety of my computer. I put my head down and got to work, hoping to shake off the shadows, but an hour later I found myself crying through the proofread because I hated every single letter on the screen.
Here is a small excerpt from John Piper’s excellent book Don’t Waste Your Life (which you can read here for free, or buy here for a pittance) wherein he expresses thankfulness for Clive Staples Lewis and details some of the ways he has cleared a path for us all. I’ll only add that I vigorously concur, and that JP is among the very few men who rank with CSL for impact in my own life. -sam
Heaven knows why it has taken me so long to write a little something about this album, the newest EP from friend and soul sister, Julie Lee. Julie and I met several years ago at a friend’s house and found immediate ease in conversation and a unique connection; sparks of light and magic hung lightly in the air around our collision. It was one of those instances where you know for sure that the God of the Universe meant for you to meet this one particular human being out of the millions that He created. I know that sounds a little dramatic, but I like drama (the good kind only, please) and am grateful when I find it happening in my little life.
Browsing the shelves of wicked-cool used bookstore here in Nashville, McKay Books, I happened upon Kathleen Norris’s (The Cloister Walk, Dakota, Amazing Grace) latest, Acedia & Me. Though I had no idea she had a new book out, the cheap sticker price for a primo first edition (Note: you will recall from a previous post that I have a more than slight affinity for used bookstores and, especially, first editions) was an easy decision. The title itself was mildly intriguing since I was vaguely familiar with the word, “acedia”, but of which I knew very little. The subtitle, “A Marriage, Monks, and A Writer’s Life”, though hardly an enticing, round-em-up, gather-em-in slogan, is true to Ms. Norris’ midwestern style, neither flamboyant nor melodramatic.
I’ve been hearing about this children’s Bible called The Jesus Storybook Bible by Sally Lloyd-Jones for a year or so now, first from Ben Shive, then from a smattering of others whose opinions I respect on such matters. One night last week Jamie and I were putting our sweet Skye to bed (she’s 6 now), and we were talking to her about Christmas. I’d been gearing up to leave for tour and with the first Sunday of Advent fast approaching we wanted to find out what she thought. Jamie asked her who was born on Christmas morning, and Skye answered, “Um…Noah?”
Russ Bremeier at Christianity Today:
Is there a qualitative difference between learning a song from your Grandfather and downloading a song from iTunes, from getting a recipe online and pulling out the yellowing paper of an old, family recipe? Ken Myers answers in the affirmative, channeling C.S. Lewis when he discusses the need for thoughtful Christians to consider not only content in what we appreciate in art, but also how we receive it.
The other night my wife and I had the opportunity to see Charlie Peacock in concert. The Art*Music*Justice tour, featuring Sarah Groves, Derek Webb, Sandra McCracken, Brandon Heath and Charlie, had an off day in Kansas City. So Charlie set up a house show with just him and his piano in the upstairs art gallery of the world’s most perfect Christian bookstore, Signs of Life, in downtown Lawrence, Kansas. (No kidding. Not a Scripture mint to be found, but huge sections on art, history, classics and local writers. There’s one wall devoted to the puritans, and another to Walker Percy, Flannery O’Connor and the like. Dangerous.)
Mystery. Intrigue. Drugs, dark secrets, the decay of the will, and the transforming power of God’s love sown by a single man to a harvest of redemption.
My favorite book I’ve read this year was initially only a curiosity piece I perused while killing time in a Barnes & Noble. I had recently bought Unchristian – a book that offers an insightful look at how outsiders of the faith view the church – by David Kinnaman & Gabe Lyons, but decided I needed a mental break and started looking for something a little lighter. I’m not inclined to reach for humor books, but the cover of a book featuring a man dressed in Old Testament garb and looking earnestly heavenward with the ten commandments in one hand and a Starbucks cup in the other proved irresistible. I picked it up, thumbed through the pages and found myself laughing out loud in the aisle at Barnes & Noble – another uncharacteristic behavior for me.
The Yellow Leaves: A Miscellany, the new book from my favorite author, Frederick Buechner, was released on June 16th. I added it to my Amazon shopping cart when I first heard about it from the Proprietor and Eric Peters, after they heard Buechner read a couple excerpts during the grand opening of the Frederick Buechner Institute back in January (which also featured a concert by Michael Card, with AP opening for him).
Walt Wangerin, Jr. strikes again.
The musical bumper sticker on my car during the ol’ college years would have definitely read “I’d Rather Be Listening To Acoustic Music.” Therein was my initial foray into the early careers of Square Peg artists like our own Proprietor. I found great enjoyment in the Texan college worship scene (early Crowder, Robbie Seay, Justin Barnard, anyone?). And the great unknown (acoustic) rock over which I stumbled came in the form of Jill Phillips.
Janner Igiby lives in Glipwood, a nothing little village in the land of Skree, on the edge of the Dark Sea of Darkness. Manhood is on the horizon, but Janner finds it hard to feel much hope for the future. Skree is ruled by foreign oppressors, snake men called the Fangs of Dang, servants of a shadowy emperor named Gnag the Nameless. The Skreeans are weak and weaponless. They’re even tool-less. Any Skreean who needs to use a hoe has to borrow one from the Fangs (and fill out the requisite paperwork). And from time to time, the Black Carriage arrives in Glipwood to carry young Skreeans toward an unknown fate across the Dark Sea.
I am not a fan of Civil War literature; in fact, I have always thought of it as one of those weird sub-genres for obsessive types. They’re almost like Trekkies with their re-enactments and maniacal devotion to detail. It’s just not my thing (although I’m secretly jealous that they get to dress up and shoot cannons).
A Randall Goodgame song is like a great independent movie. Characters deliver lines like they were lifted from a break room, a truck stop, or a downtown diner. Seemingly incongruent scenes are juxtaposed and plot isn’t obvious; in fact, narrative–a good story–is often more evident than linear plot lines. An indie movie, like a Randall Goodgame song, seems to tell itself. Rather than being rudely yanked by a chain through a sequence of contrived events, with a Randall Goodgame song, I have the sense that I’m being allowed a willing, but vicarious sneak peak into the real lives of his real characters.
Andy Gullahorn is funny, but he’s also one of the more serious lyricists I’ve come to enjoy in a while. Listening to Reinventing the Wheel, you come to understand that he is more than a good songwriter. He is a craftsman. He knows what he’s doing, where he’s going, and where he’s taking his hearers.But as I said, people say Andy Gullahorn is funny. They say that, I think, because he makes them laugh. But as for me, I’m calling it nervous laughter.
In the beginning, I had hope, because I had nothing else to lean on. As I consider your pastor’s words on hope and optimism, I can really see where I’ve let hope yield to optimism. Now that I’ve matured in my faith, I sometimes persevere for uninterrupted minutes. Shoot, I might even make it a whole fortnight without a major setback. Well, not a really major one anyway. But the I blow it, I fall flat on my face, and
pause life.
Somehow, there in that moment, hope and optimism go to battle. If hope wins, then in my failure I can look up and hold to the only hope I have - hope that there is mercy for sinners.
When optimism wins, I get up and thank God that I chalked up two whole weeks of pretty good living. I thank God that I didn’t fail worse. Give me a ‘worse’ sinner and I’ll be ready to thank God I’m not like him.
So in my optimism I look in the mirror, call the cup half full and consider the situation to be pretty good, all things considered. Don’t look in the mirror for hope — you’re not going to find it there.
Un-pause life: …and I get up and run to the mirror. Yes, sad to say, hope hasn’t been winning enough lately. Many thanks for your wonderful post, I needed it. Here’s to hope. [lifts a proper cup of tea]
Wow. You have put words to so many of the thoughts I’ve had as I read and watched this story, and lived the reality in life. Thank you, again.
Sounds like a great night. And I agree, the movies were good but could never hope to match Tolkien’s prose.
You are right, Tolkien was masterful at explaining things in a story that just let your imagination run. i have enjoyed these stories and cannot wait until my daughter can enjoy them herself….It is great to be able to take this story and explain redemption, and heaven in regards to Christ. O to be able to have sat with Tolkien and Lewis together…..maybe on the otherside….
The thing of that sermon that got me and keeps getting me is the permanence and the surety of hope. The absolute certainty that Christ’s glory will be revealed and that we absolutely will know fully as we are fully known. We are not guessing. We are waiting. It is often nothing more than my weariness in carrying that hope, or my fears of looking the fool that keep me from it. But God, I want to be willing to be a stranger and an alien here. And to remember that all of the waiting is small and light compared to the glory of Christ. I want to carry faith; the means by which God shields us until salvation comes. So often scorned as simple and foolish, it guards us until Christ is seen. Sometimes I can hardly stand it I long for him to come so badly. Its an ache that rages and rips me right through reducing me to doubled-over weeping. But all of this speaks of how wonderful that day will be and how worthy Christ is as the satisfaction of our souls.
and Return of the King is pretty cool too.
Andrew, thanks so much for this piece. I thank God for a Christian worldview that has allowed Tolkien’s masterpiece and images of the Christian life and the afterlife that are set in a fictional story to be just as influential in my spirituality and walk with the Lord as any other non-fictional work that is written explicitly to accomplish the same goals. The scene at the Grey Havens and the scene with Gandalf and Pippin also move me to tears everytime I watch them or read them. Interestingly enough, the discussion that Gandalf has with Pippin in the movie version is taken from the Grey Havens scene in the book between Gandalf and Frodo. Although Jackson and the writers did some moving around of the dialogue, I don’t think he could’ve picked a better spot to place those few lines that reveal the certainty of the eschatological promises of God and the glory of heaven. It is hard for me to say what those books, the movies, and the biblical concept that they all are derived from mean to me. When I youth pastored, I always found an excuse to show that clip in conjunction with one of my lessons from Hebews 11. Believe it or not, long before The Far Country was released, God had already been molding my heart to those special verses found in Heb 11:13-16 and that has been the defining aspect of my life in Christ ever since. Needless to say, when I saw The Far Country in a bookstore one day, I was ecstatic to see that one of my favorite musicians had the same vision. Thank you for your ministry and these words that, at least in my heart, bring more joy to my soul despite the intensity of the deep yearning in my heart for the Lord to return when “All Shall Be Well”. Praise God for the Holy Spirit who lives in us enabling us to groan for more, missing Jesus, and crying out for him to return. May we strive for holiness until then.
Until he comes, Billy.
Wow! what a great post. It is such a beautiful telling of the story. I do wonder…I don’t think we will be completely whole under this gray rain curtain, but Jesus did come to give sight and heal the broken hearted and all that Luke 4, Issiah 61 stuff. I have even lived long enough to see in hindsight the ways he is in the business of restoring me. But yet the present feels just as you’ve described. My hope is more and more healing as the day approaches. That there can come a day when my woundedness and ill-at-ease is so small that Hope is more realized than wishing.
The Grey Havens is one of the most moving scenes in the book for me, too, for all the reasons described above. One scene in the movie that was also very powerful for this viewer is the scene of the last battle before the gates of Mordor when the enemies are closing in, but then all of a sudden there’s a bit of a lull in the fighting and everyone looks up to see Barad Dur crumbling, knowing that it’s over. That’s kind of the way I picture Christ’s Second Coming…we’re all just enmeshed in the battles that we know we can’t win on our own, and then we finally see what we’ve known all along–our Hero has already won them for us, and all that’s left is the victory celebration.
Oh, and I hope Aedan had fun savoring the journey through the book–I wish I could read them again for the first time.
1 John 3:2-3
Beloved, now we are children of God, and it has not appeared as yet what we will be. We know that when He appears, we will be like Him, because we will see Him just as He is. And everyone who has this hope fixed on Him purifies himself, just as He is pure.
thank you.
i’ve got a two year old and a ten month old. i am looking forward to moments like the one you shared.
Wow! Like Andrew C said, you are very good at eloquently expressing in words what is all jumbled up in my mind. I relate to the way you noticed that it was not the movie itself that marvelled you, but the story. No matter how old and overtalked Tolkien’s stories become, they are still some of the best and will never loose their awe inspiring quality. Thanks for this great post!
(Wow, Aedan must be quite the genius to have finished the trilogy - and at least somewhat , I’m assuming understood it - by age nine! He’s homeschooled right?
Andrew-
I’ve been a faithful reader of the blog for quite a while now…I check it everyday just to see if there is a new inspiration for me to chew on until the next post. I shared your music and blog with my best friend, and we’re both hooked on them.
This got me to wondering…have you ever thought of putting out a book of devotions? Just thoughts like this are exactly what some people (like me) need daily. A sort of nudge to start the day with the Lord. I know that you have a lot on your plate, with writing music and books and touring and being with friends and family, but I think that it would make an awesome and vital tool for those of us who need a little encouragement every now and then.
God bless-
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Tolkien’s work… wow. I read the Silmarillion over break in like 3 days, and am working on The Hbbit now. I can’t wait to finish it and start in on the Lord of the Rings.
Anyway, I frequent the audio resources of the southern baptist theological seminary. And this morning I found this lecture called “Truth and Myth: Unlocking the Lord of the Rings.” Its by Joseph Pearce, who seems to be an English Literature specialist. Anyway its really good. I totally recommend it to anyone who has a care for Tolkein specifically or even similar literature. Sometimes I think there’s more truth in stories than real life. I mean, look at Jesus - he was always coming with a parapble, but I digress. Find it here:
http://www.sbts.edu/resources/Audio_Resources/Gheens_Lectures.aspx
Scroll down the the Joseph Pearce section and “Truth and Myth: Unlocking the Lord of the Rings.” Its probably about 45 minutes audio.
I’m afraid I just had a nasty schock as I went down to the wood room and realized that I no longer own a copy of the Lord of the Rings. For me, the Grey Havens and the hope there reminds me of Revelation 22:1-4 “And he showed me a pure river of the water of life, clear as crystal, proceeding from the throne of God and of the Lamb. In the middle of its street and on either side of the river was the Tree of Life, which bore twelve, each tree yielding its fruit every month. The leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations. And there shall be no more curse, but the throne of God and of the Lamb shall be in it, and His servants shall sereve Him. They shall see His face, and his name shall be on their foreheads.”
When I was 20 and life was easy I had no longing for Heaven. I praised God that He had given me a wonderful and happy life free from pain and sorrow. I hoped that I would be smart enough to learn before I had to learn the hard way. Now the long hard years have come. I understand now, some of what that longing for Heaven is. I have felt that deep weariness with the struggle and the longing to give up the fight. It was then that God reminded me that He had given me good days- days when I truly felt that I could not stand any more joy in existance. Even if there were never any more, they had been there. And one day I would see the clear river of the water of life.
God has turned His face toward me again. He has heard my prayer and turned away my affliction from me. I am so grateful becuase He has answered the prayer of my sorrow far beyond anything I could have imagined.
I love that scene where Gandalf speaks of Heaven. It moves me to tears every time. There is something so beautiful in the words he uses. And I, too, resonate with the idea of a wound that is too deep, that makes it impossible for Frodo to live in this life. I remember a friend saying to me, after seeing seeing Return of the King: So what? After all that Frodo just dies? He just commits suicide?
I was dumbfounded. It was such a different interpretation of what happenned at the end of the film. I didn’t quite know what to do with it…I tried to - fumbling all the way - explain that Frodo didn’t commit suicide but was given a release from life, an early ticket to Heaven, so to speak. But I could see that it wasn’t making any sense to my friend.
How deeply faith forms us - how amazingly it transforms our interpretation of everything happening around us. My prayer is simple: more, Lord - more faith, more hope, more trust in you. Just more. Amen.
Cheers,
R.
Nate, thanks for the link to the audio clips on Tolkien at SBTS. I can’t wait to listen to them! In Christ, Billy
thanks andrew! i especially love the passage in romans you mentioned…”hope that is seen is no hope at all.” makes me think of another favorite: “faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we don’t see” (in hebrews). peace.
Beautiful. Well spoken.
Great essay. The movies still get an emotional rise out of me when I watch them.
I thought about writing a song about eucatastrophe, but then I thought “What rhymes with eucatastrophe?” Not much, really. Too bad.
Our literal eyes may be able to see, but the eyes of our hearts are often so bloodshot and weary that our souls trip and fall.
After one of the heaviest months in recent memory I realize how bloodshot the eyes of my heart actually are. Oh to see through the tears that blur true sight. I guess that’s the hope you speak of. Thanks Andrew
Thank You For Such Heart Born Poetry in Prose.